That Not Seen

It is such a difficult process to sit behind a computer screen and decide what words should come together and be shared with many new classmates and future friends. Should I share about how my summer has gone? Or should I tell an inspirational story? Maybe I should delete this post completely. See, it is this indecisive behavior and feelings that have overtaken me recently. I find myself asking different questions to myself everyday about this up and coming transition to college. And yet, the power of an 18 year old girl cannot answer any of these questions.

I want to know where my life is going. I want to have a good idea as to where I will find myself in the future. But even still, I am entering Gordon in a few days still not 110% sure of what I want to commit my life to and honor God doing. It's my personality that gets anxious when large questions like this remain unanswered.

But I have to pause, I have to pause and think that I need to give these unanswered questions to God. This part of my life needs to be in his hands since faith is the "confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see"(Hebrews 11:1). I struggle with this the most, I want answers and as a human I feel it is my duty to find them. I don't understand why many things happen in life and why I cannot change them. But if I tell myself that what is to come from God beyond my own life will be so incredible that the worries of my days on earth will cease to harm me. Then I don't worry about the unknown. 
Gracefully anxious,
Kate Ferris